Beginning’s can be tough. Some people love jumping into a new project, flying blind, embracing E.L. Doctorow’s famous quote about writing from the Paris Review: “It’s like driving a car at night: you never see further than your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.” Other people want to know what’s going to happen: they’re plotters. They have to see well beyond those headlights. The idea of only seeing what’s just ahead scares the living hell out of them. (Poor souls: it really is rough, going it that way. Because, you know, your characters will never let that slide).
Guess what? Meditation, just like writing: headlights, my friends.
It’s silly to try to write a single post about the actual act of meditating, but also not silly, because, at it’s core, meditation is really very simple. And not. Oh my, this post is already getting very Zen. Here we go…
Two posts ago, we got into meditation posture for beginning your practice. Because, of course, before you can meditate you have to actually sit down and, ideally, you’ll be as comfortable doing so as possible. That post got into the nitty gritty, but you can down the rabbit hole of posture and props with my 7-Day Meditation Starter Kit, which should have you nice and sorted when it’s all said and done.
I’d like to use this post to talk a bit about the anxiety only seeing by those headlights might bring up, and about Beginner’s Mind, a Zen concept that is as useful for writing practice as it is for meditation. Because when you sit down to just focus on your breath, I suspect many of you will feel like you need to be doing something or experiencing something. Being productive. Or transcendent. Russell Brand or the Dalai Lama or maybe all ethereal: Uma walking across campus. But here’s the thing: it’s headlights. It’s just you sitting and being and breathing and being there, waiting for the next breath and the next. That’s it.
Basic mindfulness meditation, which I’m suggesting you begin with, is simply following your breath. Starting with a few minutes—five or ten—until eventually you’re following your breath in silence on your own for twenty minutes a day, seven days a week. (My work here is done, okay bye.)
Seriously, though, that’s it, really. Follow your breath. When your mind wanders, come back to the breath. I always use the image of our thoughts being like leaves floating in a fast moving stream. We don’t grasp onto them. We just acknowledge them, let them roll on by, and return to the breath.
I wrote a post about how meditation is sort of like white space for the Los Angeles Review of Books that might illustrate this best. See if it reads for you.
Sitting in meditation, we’re being completely present: we’re training ourselves to be okay with only being able to see as far as those headlight beams go. To be okay with the mystery, the uncertainty. Not only of our work, but of our careers, too.
In this way, we allow ourselves to cultivate what Zen master Shunryu Suzuki calls “Beginner’s Mind.” He says: In the beginner’s mind there are many possibilities: in the expert’s mind there are few.
It’s a very famous quote, one you may have heard. Beginner’s mind is what allows us to be okay with making mistakes, with failing, and with giving ourselves permission to do so—with gentleness. We may have MFAs and feel like masters, but Suzuki—a true master—is saying that mastery is actually the wisdom of being an eternal student, to be willing to say, as Michelangelo once did, “I am still learning.”
And so we continue on, through the darkness, following that light to its end.
Breathe. Write. Repeat.
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